so.. i went to bed at 5 am, had nightmares all morning, and woke up every 30 minutes. finally decided to stop beating my brain up, and just get up. i’m worried these nightmares will more or less come true. my brother’s best friend, whom you might remember me stating in earlier posts is also a good friend of mine, is leaving today for basic. we really didn’t want him to go into the army.. (technically he’s going to be in the air force) but, we still want to support him and see him off. i have this weird feeling that he didn’t text us when he was leaving, so we can’t say good bye because he actually left early this morning.. :/

i really hope it isn’t true. i’ll let you guys know how it turns out.